Stuff is only as important as we make it.
by Richard Wagamese
In the corner of our yard nearest the gravel road is an old wringer washer. It sits beneath a fir tree with its barrel filled with earth and dirt and sprouting flowers over the rim. Further back, near the front door, an old wagon wheel leans against a pine tree. Both of them hearken back to a simpler time. Rustic, some might say, but for me merely elegant and uncomplicated.
When we came here we had to disassemble everything, strip away the clutter of life. A painting that seemed relevant in a city context suddenly became unnecessary here. Books that marked the footsteps in a cosmopolitan journey were rendered irrelevant by the presence of bears.
It surprised us both, this abrupt introduction to the nature of stuff. Stuff sits on our shelves, rests in our closets, nestles in our corners, singing its histories. We come to need that voice. We come to believe that it defines us, gives us definition, offers scope to our living, our being here. But in the end, when you strip it away, it's just stuff.
Oh, there's the usual accepted arrangement of things still. Along with the woodstove in the living room we have a television, stereo, computers, and furniture — and we've held on to the art that retains its original frankness.
Considering the change reminds me of my journey back to reclaiming my culture. In the beginning I thought that I needed a conglomeration of stuff to make me an Indian. I thought I had to live my life within an Indian motif, with native art, native books, native music and native fashion. So I collected roomfuls of stuff.
But when I began to attend ceremony and was introduced to genuine traditional teachers I confronted a simplicity that astounded me. Everything in my world needed to be reflective of my identity. The teachers I found were nothing like that. Sometimes it was only the braids in their hair that bore any sense of the stamp of Indian-ness.
I wondered about that. I wondered how you could be authentic without the signature. I wondered how you could be at peace with who you are without the trappings, the statements of being. So I asked.
What I was told changed the way I live my life. I was told to gather a yard of cotton cloth, some ribbon, scissors and a can of tobacco. I was told to make this gathering my mission for one day. Then I was to find a quiet place, somewhere, perhaps, where I felt safe, secure, at peace. I was to go there with my gathered articles and sit.
I was to ask myself why my question was important, why it was necessary that I move to knowledge, and more importantly, how it felt to not carry the answer. Once I'd discerned that, I was to cut a small square of cloth with the scissors, then take a pinch of the tobacco, place it in the cloth and tie it with ribbon.
This small tobacco tie would symbolize my question and my emotional and spiritual need. With it I was to return to my teacher and offer the tobacco and ask for a teaching. Once the tobacco was accepted I could ask my question. It seemed odd, quaint, charming in a folksy kind of way. But I did it.
All true learning requires sacrifice. That's what the tobacco offering taught me in the end. That was the intent of the ritual. That's why elders ask that you make that tobacco offering.
In order to accomplish my quest for understanding I had to sacrifice my time and my money. I had to sacrifice my pride by confronting the truth of my unknowing. In the end I had to sacrifice my humility by asking.
That ceremony stripped away all of the stuff that blocked me from myself. In the end it didn't matter how I looked or what I wore. All that mattered was the nature of my question. All that mattered was how I felt about the answer. All that mattered was that I learned that it's the stuff you carry within you that gives you definition, not what you own, collect or cling to.
There is stuff that sings its histories in our lives. It sits in the corners of our being adding resonance to our living. It's the stuff of our passages, our time here, the assembled chorus of our spirit. It's the important stuff, the life altering, life affirming stuff.
You have to learn to strip it down in order to hear it, to sacrifice. When you do you come to learn that what you need is far less than what you have, even what you desire and it frees you. I wouldn't be less Indian by not knowing that – only less human.© Copyright 2012 Richard Wagamese, All rights Reserved. Written For: StraightGoods.ca